This is a photo of my precious family and me at my 30th Birthday this past year. To say we are blessed is an understatement. It’s hard to remember where I was before our little family formed. I could go on forever talking about my girls (Edee and Ellie) and the love of my life (Jordan) here! Instead I am going to try to remember my very long soul-searching journey to the now so that I can share it with you. I’ll save these cuties for another post. 😀
Lets go way back…
When I was in 5th grade I decided that I wanted to be a photographer. Instead of the brand new digital camera I asked for, my mom, well… lets be honest.. Santa, brought me a Canon Rebel. Like old school, with film! What?! To be honest, I was a bit disappointed. I wanted the shiny silver digital camera, that was new to us 90’s kids!
Years later I went to LSU and studied studio art with a concentration in photography. Guess who had a camera that happened to be perfect for the program? Me! I did! Thanks Santa 😉 Film photography taught me a lot about composition, light, and all of the technical lessons I needed to learn before trying to go pro. (Well a lot of the lessons I needed to learn, not all.)
What I didn’t learn was the business side of photography. Pretty important to know if your plan is to make a living as a photographer! So at a young age, and as much free help as I could get, I took what I knew and I pretty much failed! HA! And it wasn’t a quick fail, it was a long long process of falling. So needless to say, I learned a lot of hard lessons. It seemed to me at this point that is was too little too late…Trying, trying really hard, failing, getting up, falling again, and finally selling everything I owned photography related. I was determined to end my career as a photographer because it brought so much stress into my life. I was angry, frustrated, and mentally exhausted. So I took a leap. I searched for another passion online every single day since I made the decision to quit. I even dug into another old passion, painting. I started a successful little wine glass painting business called Glass With Sass. Still, something was tugging me in the other direction. I love to paint, and it made good money, but it wasn’t photography.
So, I tried it again as a second shooter. And again, I walked away disgusted and frustrated. I felt like I just lost every skill I had ever learned. But still, photography wouldn’t stop popping up in my head. I talked to Jordan about it a lot. I talked to God about it a lot.
What was the solution going to be for ME? I knew I didn’t want to physically shoot anymore, especially weddings. I could list all of the reasons why, but that’s not the point. What could I do to stay in the photography community without picking up a camera everyday, or spending sleepless nights editing. And how could I do it MY way?
After years of brainstorming and crying, this is what I came up with (Undoubtedly with the help of the big MAN upstairs.) Its time to help others and stop thinking so much of ME, MY, and MINE.
Like I said before, I researched a lot of different business opportunities. At the end of most of the articles read, “BUT, if you do not have a passion for this, your business will fail.” Wait a minute, I do have a passion for photography, and MY business failed?! So then I realized, yes Amy, you do have an obvious passion, but what about photography are you passionate about. I now know its not the actual shooting. Did I mention I have been in the business for almost ten years and it never occurred to me to ask myself that question. Yes, I had my preferences in shoots, but never thought twice about what part of photography I was truly passionate about! I basically forced myself to do jobs that I was never really interested in doing because I thought that was just apart of being a photographer. That ah-ha moment hit me like a ton of bricks! Oh the joys of learning to think outside of the box!
So here I am with this amazing opportunity that has been waiting for me to find. (I truly believe this) I am taking all of my passions into consideration. My God- he wants me to help people. My family- they want my time. My photography- it wants a redo.
These three things being combined was the answer that I searched SO very hard for and for SO very long. How are you going to be apart of the photography community if you aren’t shooting every weekend, you ask? I asked myself the same question.
This blog is my answer! It makes perfect sense to me. In a nutshell, I’m extremely passionate about the subject; I love to help people; and I love the time I have with my family on the weekends and afternoons.
Life is so confusing at times. It takes others a little longer to figure things out then it does some people. If it weren’t for my faith and my mad researching skills, I don’t know that I would be here in this happy place. And its only just begun! I truly hope that I get to help you avoid the mistakes that I have made. It would be a dream come true!